A Wonderful Story of Deliverance From ‘Gay Christianity’

By Michael Brown Published on August 10, 2017

When you hear good news, you want to share that news with others. Allow me, then, to share some good news with you.

We received an email this week from a young man who, until recently, believed he could practice homosexuality and follow Jesus. He has now experienced a dramatic, life-changing conversion, and he shares his story here.

I believe you’ll be encouraged as you read it, especially if you or someone close to you struggles with same-sex attraction. At the request of the writer, we are not sharing his identity.

Dr. Brown,

I really hope you see this letter personally. I wanted to share my testimony on how your ministry was used by God to bless me and bring to Himself.

In 2014, we had a short interaction on Twitter about the issue of homosexuality, which I shared on Facebook to mock you–go figure! Your ministry graciously sent me your book, Can You Be Gay and Christian? I read it prayerfully and carefully, but I came away from it (after also reading God and the Gay Christian by Matthew Vines) believing that my homosexuality was blessed by God. I believed that Vines and others had done a good job of responding to (or refuting) theologians such as yourself.

So, as much as I appreciated the book, I went on with my life and continued in the LGBTQ lifestyle. At the same time, I attended a Christian university while hiding my sexuality from them. I graduated in 2015 with a B.S. in Church Ministries.

Dr. Brown, you know as well as I do that college graduations are supposed to be celebrations of our hard work and academic accomplishments. However, it was one of the worst days of my life.

In 2014-2015, I started to have a lot of doubts and became deeply depressed. My relationship with my boyfriend at the time started to fall apart. From 2014-2016, I was unemployed because I was so paralyzed by fear. It’s ironic…my degree is in Church Ministries, but as I walked across the platform at my graduation I wasn’t actively attending a church. Most people run to church when they’re depressed and dealing with bad circumstances. I did the opposite. I stopped attending my local church.

I realized that I wasn’t saved. I thought going to church, reading my Bible, attending a Christian university, and loving my neighbor (as best I could) meant I was saved. But I didn’t have a relationship with Christ and I didn’t see the Spirit’s work in my life.

In January 2017, I started attending seminary simply because I was tired of people asking me what I was doing with my undergrad degree. I figured I could say “I’m continuing my education” to stall for time. During Spring break, I read your book again. This time it was different. The lies and deceptions from Vines and other “gay Christian” theologians were exposed. God showed me that homosexual practice was sin. Unfortunately, I still didn’t stop engaging in that sin…yet.

I hit rock bottom when my relationship with my boyfriend of four years ended after my Spring semester ended. It was during this time period, I kept thinking about your book.

I asked God to save me over the course of an entire month. I drove myself nuts when I didn’t feel like He had answered my prayer. But in my desperation, I kept going back to His Word and the Gospel until I knew one day God saved me, as I cried out to Him on my bedroom floor. The genuine conversion experience was unlike anything I had ever experienced. I knew this was different from the “Christianity” that I had believed before as a gay man.

Right now, I’m still getting used to my lifestyle change, and I do feel a lot of temptation. But God has been so gracious to me! Your book, even three years after you sent it to me, was a tool that He used to show me the truth about homosexuality, and lead me to the Truth. I’m so thankful for you, Dr. Brown. Words can’t express how much I truly love you and your ministry for helping to point me to Christ. I pray for you daily.

I hope you’ll pray for me as well. I’m asking and believing on God to use me to reach those far from Him. I have a burden for the lost, especially the Latter-day Saints and LGBTQ individuals. I’m hoping, when the Lord wills it and after I grow in Him some more, to put my Christian education in ministry. I’m still trying to figure that out, while trusting His timing and that He’ll guide me to where I need to be.

Anyways, there is so much more I want to say to you. But I know you’re very busy. I hope my testimony has blessed you. Please pray for me. God bless you, Dr. Brown.

We have reached out again to this young man. We will be standing with him in prayer as he takes one step at a time moving forward in God. Would you join us in prayer for him as well?

And for all those who have friends and loved ones caught up in the deception of “gay Christianity,” don’t despair. There’s always hope in the Lord. What He did for this young man, He can do for them — and for you.

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  • JM

    These ”Christians” who are pro LGBT subscribe to the LGBT interpretation of God (the one that the LGBT has envisioned God to be) not the true God found in the Bible and homosexuals see those of us who do not view God the same they do as haters but no just because I do not agree with the LGBT view of God does not mean that I hate them it just means that I have a different of God than them. my view of God is more Biblical while their view of God is one homosexuals made up themselves. homosexuals view God is this pro LGBT. pro homosexual practice. all accepting and does not care what people do with their gender. the true God (the God found in scripture) is not like that. he is all loving but not all accepting. he accepts people who have lived as homosexuals but he does not accept them if these people are still living as homosexuals and he does care about people do what their gender. this whole God accepts us regardless of who we love or how we choose to live our lives is not God. love is love is not in the Bible. the only love God recognizes is the love between a man and his wife. God would not be ok with same sex relationships and he would not be ok with men wanting to enter the womens bathroom and locker room or with a man wanting to chop off his private part and get breast implants. God would not be ok with none of this because unlike the LGBT (who wants erase gender from existence and abolish gender roles) God does care about gender and established gender roles. he is not into the whole gender bending thing that the LGBT is into that says that a man should be allowed to paint his nails and wear makeup and dress as a woman and live as a woman. God wants men to be men and women to be women and wants them doing things that are in accordance to their gender. Deuteronomy 22:5 A woman shall must not wear men’s clothing nor a man wear women’s clothing for the LORD your God detests anyone who does this. if God does not want people wearing the clothes of the opposite sex than he would also not want people doing other things that does not go in line with the gender he created them as. the LGBT wants this no-boundaries-anything goes type god that allows people to be with whoever they want to and dress however they want to and go to whatever bathroom and locker room they want to. I’m sorry but this is not God. God is a God of gender. a God of order. and a God of rules. he wants men to be with women and women to be with men and wants men to go the mens restroom and wants men to wear clothing that were made for men and also just because people call themselves Christians does not mean that they actually are and the Bible makes this clear (Matthew 7:21) supporting homosexual sinful ”rights” is not doing the will of the father. read Isiah 5:20 to see what God has to say about these so called ”christians”

  • RuthER

    Praying with you Dr. Brown!

  • Nunyadambizness

    I will lift you both in prayer, thank you for sharing this story and may God use this man in a meaningful way to save the lost.

  • Mensa Member

    I’m glad this fellow has found peace in his sexuality and sincerity in his faith.

    It must have been awful not being his genuine self. It’s painful but a fairly common experience in those college years. Kids discover that they may not be who they think they are. This seems especially true for religion and sexuality.

    And this poor fellow got hit by a double whammy! He probably wasn’t really gay or genuinely a Christian.

    I am completely sincere when I say that I’m glad for him.

    But, i hope he can be glad when others find their peace, even if it is different than his.

    • Emilie Wolf Elizondo

      The point of his letter seems to be that once he got to rock bottom in his sin, he cried out to God, repented, and was saved. His life is being transformed. Another point is that that he realized that because of Vine’s book, he had been believing lies. The foundation of Vine’s book is that since gays were born that way and can’t change, God must have made him gay. God must not want to force them to be celebite and alone the rest of their lives, so it must not be a sin bc God wouldn’t want him to be unhappy. There are other points, but it seems like this person finally realized that God doesn’t make people to be gay, and that it’s sin to act upon the temptation to homosexual acts. It was a sin issue and an issue of deception, not “maybe he wasn’t really gay.” The point is that in God’s eyes, no one is really gay, we are all sinful in nature, and this is just one small aspect of how our sin nature manifests, just like adultery, gluttony, slander, lying, etc. Maybe he would benefit from therapy, or maybe he wasn’t clinically depressed. Maybe his depression was a result of his separation from God, trying to live a double life, and being away from the church.

      • JM

        Nice response. homosexuality is and was always a sin and the Bible does not support the idea of people being born homosexual as that is something society came up with and pushes on homosexuals but nowhere in the Bible do we see it backing this. God did not created people homosexual. why would a Christian believe in something that is not in the Bible and that God never said? where in the Bible did God say that homosexuals are born that way and that he wanted for some people to be homosexual? it is nowhere in the Bible. you are believing in something society (not God) said. from the beginning of the Bible to end we see that he created the man for the woman and the woman for the man because that is the pattern that we see thought out the Bible. there are no same sex relationships in the Bible and that is because God did not make people to be homosexual but society continues to push this lie on homosexuals and it is not good because it will do harm to the souls of these people.

      • WSC777

        There is no conclusive evidence anyone is born attracted to the same gender. God wants no one to be outside his intended design.

    • Patmos

      You really need to stop talking as though you are in a position of knowledge or authority, because you clearly are not. You are a fake Christian, completely oblivious to the significance of Christ and the meaning of salvation. You’re just an obnoxious loud mouth twerp posing as a believer in God’s word.

      • Tyrone Mackintosh

        A very poor comment (Christian or non-Christian).

    • Charles Burge

      This seems to be a pretty standard line whenever someone turns away from homosexuality – that they were never really gay in the first place. Sorry, but I highly doubt you’re in a position to know that. Why not simply take the man at his word?

      • m-nj

        i have to agree with you… that’s like saying a thief or a murderer or an adulterer who gets saved really wasn’t a thief or a murderer or an adulterer.

        • Hannah

          It’s their way of preserving the “reality” that states that all gays are happy and uncompromising. Anything that varies from that statement disqualifies the former member and degrades them to “not really gay”. It’s despicable.

    • m-nj

      there is NO peace without grace and reconciliation to God through Christ… an unrepentent LGBTxyz will clearly not have peace, though they may be self-deceived and bound for hell like this young man was.

    • No Christian can be “glad” for a person who denies God with his actions and claims he has peace. That person is tragically deceived and Christians will plead with him and weep for him, praying he may find God’s salvation.

    • Tyrone Mackintosh

      You are bang on right. Thank you for your comment, this young man could do with support from people like you Mensa. It is an ethical atrocity for Christians to promote stories like his to support their conservative agendas. The young man has alot going on mentally, and for him to have peace of mind, Christians should help him to develop emotionally and psychologically, without pointing conservative ideology at him, as if it were a loaded gun. There is no way scientifically to prove how or why homosexuality starts, or ends. Christians BACK OFF, this is one of those mysteries that you they will never be able to solve. No amount of bible study, prayer, church seat warming, will ever give this man peace of mind. That is between him and God, nobody else.

      • eddiestardust

        I will pray for you , too.

        • Tyrone Mackintosh

          Jesus Christ was far more sophisticated than the average evangilical Christian, he also had the power to ‘see’ a persons emotional and psychological development, starting from birth. So i suggest to all Christians, get off the internet and start running towards the library, starting in the human psychology section of the library.

    • Hildabeast

      There is no peace apart from utmost surrender to God.

  • tether

    Thanks for sharing the testimony. God is the answer to all deceptions the enemy of our souls would have us believe.

  • JM

    These ”Christians” who are pro LGBT subscribe to the LGBT interpretation of God (the one that the LGBT has envisioned God to be) not the true God found in the Bible and homosexuals see those of us who do not view God the same they do as haters but no just because I do not agree with the LGBT view of God does not mean that I hate them it just means that I have a different of God than them. my view of God is more Biblical while their view of God is one homosexuals made up themselves. homosexuals view God is this pro LGBT. pro homosexual practice. all accepting and does not care what people do with their gender. the true God (the God found in scripture) is not like that. he is all loving but not all accepting. he accepts people who have lived as homosexuals but he does not accept them if these people are still living as homosexuals and he does care about people do what their gender. this whole God accepts us regardless of who we love or how we choose to live our lives is not God. love is love is not in the Bible. the only love God recognizes is the love between a man and his wife. God would not be ok with same sex relationships and he would not be ok with men wanting to enter the womens bathroom and locker room or with a man wanting to chop off his private part and get breast implants. God would not be ok with none of this because unlike the LGBT (who wants erase gender from existence and abolish gender roles) God does care about gender and established gender roles. he is not into the whole gender bending thing that the LGBT is into that says that a man should be allowed to paint his nails and wear makeup and dress as a woman and live as a woman. God wants men to be men and women to be women and wants them doing things that are in accordance to their gender. Deuteronomy 22:5 A woman shall must not wear men’s clothing nor a man wear women’s clothing for the LORD your God detests anyone who does this. if God does not want people wearing the clothes of the opposite sex than he would also not want people doing other things that does not go in line with the gender he created them as. the LGBT wants this no-boundaries-anything goes type god that allows people to be with whoever they want to and dress however they want to and go to whatever bathroom and locker room they want to. I’m sorry but this is not God. God is a God of gender. a God of order. and a God of rules. he wants men to be with women and women to be with men and wants men to go the mens restroom and wants men to wear clothing that were made for men and also just because people call themselves Christians does not mean that they actually are and the Bible makes this clear (Matthew 7:21) supporting homosexual sinful ”rights” is not doing the will of the father. read Isiah 5:20 to see what God has to say about these so called ”christians”

  • Normandy Salagubang

    amen and amen and amen. praise the Lord!

  • Steven Fritz

    This is what happens when the Gospel is presented uncompromisingly not to win popularity but to please God.

  • What a joy to read! Praise the LORD! May the LORD bless that young man in his Christian life and Dr. Brown for his sincere love for all those who struggle with same-sex attraction!

  • My prayers for this young man. May God give him strength to fight off the temptations, which must be overwhelming.

  • Patmos

    “Right now, I’m still getting used to my lifestyle change, and I do feel a lot of temptation.”

    Reckon yourself dead to sin, but alive to God through Christ. You are seated together with Christ Jesus in heavenly places, stand against the devil and he will flee from you. Do not be like the fraud who posts here named Mensa Member, who lets foul spirits in and walks in the ways of the world and confuses it for grace, but rather take up the shield of faith and the sword of the Spirit which is God’s word. The wiles of the devil will not prevail against you.

    • m-nj

      i guess we ALL could say “Amen” to that.

  • Trilemma

    Some people are born left handed. With effort, they can learn to live as right handed people. But that doesn’t mean they weren’t born left handed. Some people are born homosexual. With effort, they can learn to live as heterosexual people. But that doesn’t mean they weren’t born homosexual. I’m glad this person is succeeding in learning to live as a heterosexual person since that evidently is bringing him peace between him and his religion.

    • WSC777

      There is no conclusive evidence that people are born attracted to the same gender. A recent study by John Hopkins concluded that. Your tired comparison to lefthandedness is something that is not scientifically supported.

      • Trilemma

        There is no conclusive evidence that falsifies the claim that people are born attracted to the same gender. The John Hopkins study cited scientific evidence that genetics, gene expression and hormones can all predispose a person to same sex attraction. The study also concluded that much more research is needed.

        • WSC777

          Predisposition does not equate to predetermination. Family dynamics, nurturance or lack of, trauma have a huge part in one’s orientation in adulthood.

          • Trilemma

            For many, predisposition does equate to predetermination when there are no other factors such as family dynamics, nurturance, or trauma contributing to one’s orientation.

          • Rex Rhinesmith

            How does one exit the womb and mature without experiencing family dynamics, nurturance, or trauma?

          • Trilemma

            Many people mature into adults who are homosexual in nurturing two parent Christian families with no trauma just like others who develop into adults who are heterosexual. In such cases, family dynamics, nurturance and trauma are not factors that contribute to a person maturing into someone who is homosexual.

          • Shaquille Harvey

            Is your response the same for pedophilia and such too ?

          • Trilemma

            I’m sure there are people who mature into adults who are pedophiles in nurturing two
            parent Christian families with no trauma just like others who develop
            into adults who are not pedophiles.

          • Rex Rhinesmith

            Family dynamics, nurturing, and trauma exist as continua and are present, to their respective degrees, in the life of every person. As there is no case in which the three are absent from human development and experience, there is no line of demarcation permitting placement of cause on predisposition or predetermination exclusive of the other. Your scenario, as originally described, leaves a crack in the door through which predetermination can sneak to the forbiddance of the former; a conclusion based on your inadvertent conversational treatment of the three factors as binary. Surely predisposition and predetermination are overlapping continua in this situation. Nobody knows for sure.

          • WSC777

            Nope. There has been no evidence genetics plays a determining role at all. Twins studies, brains study. Everything. You don’t understand how it works.

            “No other factors such as family dynamics”…. right because gay people were born in test tubes /smh

    • Jerome Horwitz

      Homosexuality has nothing to do with being born left handed. False comparison.

      • Trilemma

        I never said homosexuality had anything to do with being born left handed. The comparison is not false. Both left handedness and same sex attraction are not choices. In both cases, a person can learn to live contrary to their nature.

        • Shaquille Harvey

          Is there evidence for this or is it an assertion?

          • Trilemma

            Yes, there is evidence. There are plenty of personal testimonies online of people who found themselves attracted to people of the same sex without choosing to do so. This article is evidence that a person born homosexual can live contrary to their nature.

          • Shaquille Harvey

            There also testimonies that contrary to this as well. But what evidence to this are they born that way.

          • Trilemma

            The evidence is the personal testimonies of those who found themselves attracted to people of the same sex and their struggle to not be that way. Also, the failure of conversion therapy.

          • Shaquille Harvey

            Yes but there is also testimonies that show contrary to yours

          • Trilemma

            Which is evidence of what? That some are not born homosexual? I realize that some people’s homosexuality may be the result of other factors such as child abuse.

          • Shaquille Harvey

            What evidence do you have for any of this are its it an assertion?

          • Charles Burge

            Suppose I found myself wanting to steal things without choosing to have that desire. Would that mean I was born a kleptomaniac and that I should get society to embrace my kleptomania? Of course not. What you described is the way temptation works. All of us are tempted to sin without choosing to be tempted. That’s human nature. The fact that some people are tempted to lust after people of the same sex doesn’t make it any different from temptation to lie, steal, exploit people, or any other sin. This article is evidence that a person tempted to sin can live contrary to his nature. That is the shared experience of all people who have surrendered their lives to Jesus Christ.

          • Trilemma

            Some behaviors society cannot embrace because they violate people’s rights. Other behaviors society can embrace. Homosexuality is one of those that society can embrace or at least tolerate even though some think it’s a sin.

          • Shaquille Harvey

            Why ?

    • Emilie Wolf Elizondo

      Being left handed has never or will never be considered a sin and does not result in sinful behavior. Giving into temptation to do what is clearly forbidden is sin. These two things cannot be compared. Homosexuality has never been proven to be due to genetic causes, but there is more evidence that it either the result of environmental factors alone, or the effect of environmental stimulus upon biological factors such as hormones or gene expression. Studied have shown even correlations between environmental effects upon devrloping fetuses (such as stress, hormonal imbalances) and future identification as LGBT. Studies have also shown that a much higher percentage of children who have experienced abuse go on to identify as LGBT versus those who don’t have a history of abuse. So given this evidence, shouldn’t more be done to help people deal with the possible underlying issues that may lead them towards LGBT lifestyles that are inherently risky? IMO, these people are being done a great disservice in the name of hypothetical psychology that is descriptive in nature but unprovable, political correctness, body autonomy and “do whatever feels good to you.”

      • Trilemma

        There was a time when Christians believed that left handedness was of the Devil and forced children to use their right hands. These two things can be compared because they are both not choices and in both cases, a person can learn to live contrary to their nature. Just because you believe something is a sin is not sufficient reason to force them to live contrary to their nature.

        If children have been abused then we should by all means help them deal with that. The LGBT community should not be the pawns of political correctness nor religious correctness.

        • Your comparisons are comparing “apples to oranges”. They do have a common point but not the relevant commonality for the argument you are trying to make. As such your whole argument is a logical fallacy. Even if we grant that there is a genetic component to homosexuality, there is a genetic component to all sin. It is absolutely irrelevant to bring up Christians believing lefthandedness to be a sin. Does the Bible speak of the sin of lefthandedness? Christianity is all about going against your sin nature, a sin nature that does not include lefthandedness!

          • Trilemma

            Stories like the one in this article are used by Christians as proof that people are not born homosexual because if they were born that way then they wouldn’t be able to change like the person in this article. My comparison was to show that’s not a valid proof.

          • Jackie

            Yet you are still trying to use a cultural dislike as if it was actually counted among sins in the Bible. Cultures change, society changes, the word of God in the Bible does not (unless you have a bad language translator, even then, that’s man’s error, not God’s)
            Nowhere in the Bible does it state that being left-handed is of the devil or inherently evil. That was a cultural thing that has been proven to not matter. The sin of choosing to turn away from God for desires of the flesh is in the Bible. That’s where your argument falls apart.
            Your argument would have us believing black cats are ‘of the devil’ again too. Superstitions are not sins, and man made superstitions are not of God. They are of man and man can be wrong.

          • Trilemma

            My point is that people who are homosexual are born that way and that this story does not prove otherwise.

          • Jackie

            Which gene has been proven to be a ‘gay gene’? Sorry if I missed that publication…

          • Trilemma

            Which gene has been proven to be a ‘straight gene’? Sexual orientation is more complicated than a single gene.

  • m-nj

    I am sure Dr. Brown’s book is very good, but if you or someone you care about is not a “reader”, i’d highly recommend a very good (and long) rebuttal to the whole “gay christian” ideology that is being promoted by Mathew Vines et al… see youtube . com / watch?v=QESCfpWUTE8

    • Jerome Horwitz

      Matthew Vines is a self-serving liar. He doesn’t know Jesus, which he’ll discover when he dies and finds himself in hell.

      • Charles Burge

        That’s unfair. I agree completely that Vines is in error and teaching heresy, but whether he’s saved or not isn’t for us to say.

        • Jerome Horwitz

          That’s unfair.

          It’s accurate. Anyone who claims to be a Christian and yet refuses to let go of sin isn’t. Matthew Vines does not know Jesus Christ.

        • Royce E. Van Blaricome

          Actually Charles, it is. Vines’ call himself a Christian. As Ambassadors of Christ we are called to expose the Posers and Wolves.

    • Emilie Wolf Elizondo

      He is a false teacher, and his interpretation of scripture id based on cultural ideas, when it should be the reverse.

  • Az1seeit

    How wonderful!! Thank you Father!! Praise You!!

  • eddiestardust

    He will be in my prayers as well.

  • Boris

    What is gay Christianity? The Vatican is gay Christianity. The Church has spent billions of dollars in legal fees to keep their perverts and pedophiles out of jail. Money that surely would have better spent on feeding, clothing and housing the poor. This clearly illustrates the moral bankruptcy of the Christian superstition. How many more Protestant leaders will be outed as homosexuals and pedophiles before people wake up and realize this is not just a Catholic problem? All you self-loathing white supremacist homosexuals are eventually going to be outed.

  • Elizabeth Litts

    It amazes me sometimes how some people are angry and in denial about someone who gets free of sin. It’s like they live to drag others back into bondage–like the slave catchers of old. I am going to be praying for this young man –and I hope he ignores all those here who want to see him back in bondage again. More proof that misery loves company! and hates and resents the freedom that coming to Jesus gives.

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